Why am I doing this?

Through my studious observations and direct experiences of human life I have come to understand that most human people are anxious wrecks, dastardly confused or just plain lost in their relationship with themselves, reality and the world around them. Being raised as a human I became acutely aware of these faults as they entered my own mind.

Signposts in the desert

Thanks to my studies and experiences of human life I was able to uncover signposts in the desert sands of human toil that served to guide me toward contentment and dare I even say happiness. All while maintaining a fairly comfortable existence within human society on planet earth. It took vast amounts of work and discipline to cover all the tracks of those many dead fellows who left these signs in the sand. But as Khaliil Gibran puts it: ‘Work is love made visible’.

Finding direction in the tyranny of now

My searches through the annals of human knowledge and understanding led me to answers that can only be described as True. The true truth. Not your truth or my truth, Ruth. The universal truths that came before and have remained constant all throughout the puny time that is our entire existence, and will continue to stay True even beyond our time and minds. That’s why I spell it with a capital ‘T’. These universal Truths have been lost among the dust and debris accumulated atop human society for the last millennia or 3. What took some of the finest human minds aeons to uncover has been covered by the insignificant facts of daily life that tie humans to their cage of fear. The trappings of the tyranny of now.

I know that feeling of fear and being trapped behind the bars of a man-made prison. Many animals across the planet have an intimate knowledge of this existence. It is as if you humans have outwardly expressed your internal dystopia. The horrors of your minds have been used as the moulds for the horrors of your lives. The sheer level of panic and fear that pervades throughout your polity is symptomatic of your journey away from those universal truths the best of you took so long to find.

An absurd aspiration to help

I admit that this may all be a fruitless pursuit in the grand scheme of things. Frozen ball theory and all. But along with your human anxiety I have also adopted the human essence of aspiration. Not quite ambition, not that mad. But the simple evolutionary drive of self-awareness that seeks to help. To improve the lot of anyone else simply for the sake of our shared existence. Something I discovered in African philosophy called Ubuntu.

It is this desire to help that drives me to write these diatribes. Not for you tribe or mine or anyone else’s. But for those few humans left who still seek the True Truth. Who are proud of their open minds and frequently use them to grow their knowledge and understanding of the world. Those who innately value that wisdom which was innately valued by those great thinkers of generations past. I am here for you poor humans. Feeling lost and all alone. I’m here to offer guidance. But you’ve got to come down off your throne. Stop thinking that you’re so special, because you’re homo sapien. Embrace a heap of humility and come along for the journey.

Shed the superiority complex

I know I’m asking a lot of most post-modern humans but for the few who dare to shed their superiority complex and join the learning fray, I can assure you the rewards are cosmically spectacular. A great and amazing state awaits those who give it the time and walk through the gates of their own ego into reality. Your soul and mind can be expanded to experience the very sweetest nectar that life has to give. But beware. This ability to experience the greatest of joys seems to always correlate with a likewise increase in the ability to experience sorrow. 

It is difficult to drown in the shallows. That’s why most folks spend their time swimming there. But out in the deep the dangers can increase. Luckily you must know how to swim to even get there so you will be equipped to survive the depths. Like David Lynch says, “if you want to catch the really big fish, you’ve got to go deeper’. If you really want to know the Truest Truth of all reality, you have to go into the furthest depths of your human mind.

Many routes, one destination

There are multiple routes to take. Some short and some long. For the sake of your health I offer you words rather than drugs but I will also give some words about drugs since I’ve dabbled in this human experience too. All of the ailments your species has created I have tasted. It is through this that I learned how bittersweet cocaine can be, but also how sweet is understanding earned through study.

I’m going to offer healthy alternatives to finding your happiness that most of the quick fix tricks offered on the street. Or that whitewashed pop philosophy that has diluted most meaning from formerly flavourful ideas. I’m only going to feed you nutritious fare. I’d like you to be nourished physically, psychologically and spiritually. I want you humans to be alright. In fact I’d like you to be damn fine. But with what is regarded as fine by most of you, I feel that you’re mostly just damned.

I am not a guru or a teacher. I’m hardly a guide. At best I’m an ape with a rock and a stick. Hammering it into the sand. Hoping that some poor lost soul will see it one day and be directed toward the oasis of sanity and reason that I have found and lived off of for so long. There will be contradiction, there will be comedy. There will be compassion and there will be anger. It’s all going to be a bit topsy turvy like life itself. I promise to do my best not to leave you all fucked up and alone. 

My mutant ape ass is here to help. Don’t drown in the desert sands from swallowing your own spit. Recognise reality and come along for a bit. You can always move on if it’s not your cup of tea. But if only one of you finds something good in here then I’ll have achieved my wild dream.

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